you need to love them.

imperfections. people always point out there flaws about themselves, even i do.. and i need to work on that. WE all need to work on that. your going to live with these for the rest of your life... so instead of being ashamed of them, you need to start trying to love them.

imperfections.
> i complain- a lot
> i'm concerned about my acne, and hate when people stare at my face.. makes me feel like they are looking right at my acne
> i worry about what people think about me
> i give people attitude a lot
> i think everyone hates me, due to bullying from last year
> i am very sensitive
> i can't choose what to do in life, friends house, etc.
> i get frustrated very easily
> i loose my temper too... but i think we all have these moments
> i struggle to find the positive in everything that i do
> i over react//over think things
> i always think i'm going to end up getting trouble
> i have stains on my teeth that will not go away

these are not all of my imperfections, i do have more- trust me. i have made a goal to love all of them, and to also work on them. it's life and we need to accept ourselves... and to also love our imperfections.

do's & don'ts.

last night i had a sleepover with the ballroom team... oh my gosh it was a party all night long.
here is some advice i give to all of you.

Do:
> make a triple batch of muddy buddies
> pillow and blanket
> ear plugs {a must}
> movies {chick flicks!}
> wear comfy sweat pants.

Don't:
> don't stay up until 6 am
> don't bring a rockstar... unless you want to be... well you know how it goes
> DON'T put a feminine product on a girls forehead.. unless you want to end up getting chased and attacked by a broom.
> don't tell them your most embarrassing moment... unless you want to be laughed at forever.
> DO NOT BRING ALL YOUR GAME CUBES, WII, X-BOX, ETC. OVER! {boys specifically}
> you know when you are really tired, and you start blurting out personal or embarrassing things about you... ya don't do that when you are tired.

this was a great way to end my summer, i love my ballroom family.
p.s. i'm really tired.

fitness time.

it is time for the fitness post. yay. i am not going to be doing my summer fitness routine, because i don't have one. to me i believe that you should enjoy yourself during the summer... so i'm going to be doing my winter//fall work out routine. since i go to a performing arts school, they kick our butts with hard work outs that will make you sore for days. not even kidding. it's totally worth it though, because now i have a great amount of muscle. i also believe i got all this muscle from drill team, and just because i'm a dancer. 

drill work out//killer sandwich: 

run one mile every day

10 jumping jacks

50 sit ups

25 crunches

50 push ups

30 second plank

25 burpees

20 high knees

the killer sandwich? well the killer sandwich is when we would do all those things, as many times as we could for 30 minutes. (besides the one mile run) we would do the killer sandwich once a week, and oh my gosh it was a painful experience. {maybe that's why i have such a hard stomach..?} we weren't supposed to have sugar the whole entire year... but i sort of cheated. 

school work out:

25 jumping jacks

25 high knees

25 triceps pushups

25 push ups

50 crunches

2 minute plank

we would also do pushups across the floor and yoga at the end of each month. the school work out isn't as bad as drill team... but it did make me sore from doing it EVERY SINGLE DAY. last summer i would do 300 sit ups every day... woah. i know that is a lot, but i really wanted a strong stomach- also a six pack. :) 

drinks:

DONT DRINK SODA. 

i don't drink any soda, and i haven't for probably.... well let's just say it's been a LONG time since i have had soda. i personally don't like soda, so it's easy to stay away from that. you should drink at least 8 cups of water every day... and i hardly ever drink water. i don't know why, but i never come across my mind to drink water. 

drill work out drink: a.k.a the worst drink alive.

2 cups of spinich

2 cups of water

1 cup of whey protein

a squeeze of lemon juice

now blend that baby up! 

our coach made us drink that every single day. it is supposed to cleanse you when you drink it..? honestly i almost threw up the first time i had it. then i decided to put some strawberries and bananas in there, and it tasted like heaven drinking it. 

i hope this was at least sorta helpful and got some tips.  i do like working out, but not during the summer. have a great monday!

Words//Feelings

I honestly can't even breathe. -How could i be so stupid.

All i had to say was STOP. 

But i kept playing along with my dumb sarcasm talk. 

I didn't mean it in that way- at all.

I was being a clueless teenage girl being sucked up in his love. 

And i know you didn't mean it that way also. 

Another LONG months until i can talk.

Within those months I WILL MISS YOU.

But i know this for better. 

It will make our relationship grow tremendously.

It will be the most hardest months for me, and maybe for you.

But it will go by so fast. 

It will be hard not hearing your loving voice or your loving face...

But Heavenly Father is going to help us both grow so much. 

And also grow so much respect for each other. 

Go on and roll your eyes at me for being so dramatic.

or call me stupid for having a boyfriend. 

GO AHEAD

Heavenly Father is feeling my pain.

But i am thankful for having him in my life. 

He knows all my deepest darkest secrets and all my flaws.

He knows me more than anybody else.

I couldn't live without him in my life. He has blessed me in my life so much. 

And i'm thankful that i can talk to him every morning and night. 

Everything happens for a reason. 

I believe that. 

I'm sorry mommy and daddy what i said. - i really am.

I'm sorry to the friends that i pushed away.

I was so caught up in something else. 

I'm sorry.

I don't know how many times i have to say it for you to accept/believe.

We are stupid teenagers, and we make mistakes... No one is perfect. 

Often we don't realize that what we have could one day be gone. 

And if we have something good, we got to do all we can to keep it. 

Don't take advantage of what you have. 
Especially if it's the best you have had. I have learned that. 

I get bugged over little things and I get jealous easily. But it's only because I care. 

I never used to be jealous, but then I started loving you. 

Now I’m jealous of just about every girl that you talk to, smile at, or even wave at. It’s all because in those seconds when you look into their eyes, I’m not on your mind. 

Or at least that's what I think.

 I’ve ruined many relationships by over thinking too much. I think it may be all these guys’ faults... but really, it’s just me.

Yes- i may be to young for love...

It's almost as if right when I though things couldn't get any worse... It all just suddenly seems to get better. 

{for us gaining respect for each other}

I honestly haven't been this happy in a long time. And I feel more confidant that I ever have. 

And it is all because of one boy. 

He is one of my best friends, and I've found myself falling for him. And he has helped me learn to always accept and feel comfortable with your flaws, that way no one can ever use them against you. 

And he makes sure I feel important every time we talk. 

If someone makes you happy, then the rest shouldn't even matter. And I am learning that.

 I am not the type of girl to have a boy friend {wait... jk}, but he honestly makes me see things in different ways. 

He is different then all the others. And we are already so close that we have an amazing friendship built. He has seen every side of me. Good, and bad. 

And he still wants to be with me. And that makes me like him that much more. 

When you find a guy that is respectful, opens all the doors for you, helps you with your homework, gets you little things "just because", and is always putting you first before other things... Keep him.

I may get in trouble for saying these things or naive. 

But i have had prayers that have been answered- and i know Heavenly Father doesn't lie. 

NEVER

I love you- don't forget that.