28 January, 2014

another trial, another heart break, and another testimony getting stronger.

my best friend, 
at this time you are struggling, seeing you like this is literally breaking my heart. you mean so much to me and i hope you know that i will always be there for you.... you will get through this. heck, we will get through this. i'm in tears just writing this. this week has been so hard for me and i believe i have been crying myself to sleep each night... but i know with heavenly father and faith everything will be okay. i've never seen you so upset, and i have never seen you cry... and i have been witnessing it all this week. i don't know how i can fix this problem, or help you out... but i will be with you every step of the way. it's not everyday that you hear your best friend has... i'm not even going to say it. i love you so much. i'm scared, i've been thinking "what if's" all this week. i've already lost a family member from cancer, and it was so hard on me... it's still hard to think knowing that innocent human being had to suffer so much pain. i didn't see the pain grow worse on her, but since you live five seconds away from me... i will be witnessing it... i will be there holding your hand, and squeezing it 3 times {i.love.you}... 
your amazing, and i'm not going to leave your side. i never thought this day could happen. i can't loose you, i really can't. heavenly father gave you this trial for a reason, and all you and i have to do is keep smiling and cherish the moments we have with each other. your my best friend and i can't loose you. stay strong babes.
love, your sienna bear 


ryan, i'm gonna love you through it..... 

1 comment:

Chantel Petty // said...

I am so sorry sienna! sending love your way. I am currently going through something similar in my life, so just know you are not alone. Love you lots.

xx