A BULLY STORY | megan's story

*names have been changed for privacy reasons.

This is my story, not many people have ever heard it. I have had issues with making friends, no matter how many times I go out of my comfort zone to ask for a friend. Whenever I asked,  I always got laughed at. I switched schools a lot when I was little, I did public school, charter school and even home school. I never fit in at school.
I remember one day in 1st or 2nd grade, I was playing on the sidewalk playing hop scotch with a couple other kids, I remember one girl asked me where all my friends were, I told her I didn't have any and she immediately called me a loser and told me that I couldn't play with them anymore. I was heart broken. A week later this girl passed me a note saying: "Quinn* says you have no friends you're stupid." It all went down hill. 
I switched schools and was there for most of the year until Christmas. I switched to homeschool at that point because I was struggling. After a month of homeschool I went back to my elementary school for 3rd and 4th grade. I met this kid named Zac* who was autistic and had food allergies. I did everything with him from eating lunch to playing outside to hanging out with him and his sister. It was so nice to live a normal bully free life. I switched back to the charter school for 5th-1st term of 9th. I switched to the public junior high school. I hated it. I worked in the lunch room for my lunch and got teased, in choir I got notes in my bag and even whispered about. I walked down the halls and got rocks thrown at the back of my head and every time I got hit I heard "hey look I hit fatso!" followed by laughter. I got tripped in the halls, notes in my locker and even staples in my hair. Towards the middle of my 9th grade year I got made fun of in front of my math class because I sneezed. I lost it and ran to the bathroom and just sobbed. 
For weeks after I got made fun of in math and in science. I developed a bad habit. When my friend found out she took me to the counselor, where she threatened to call my parents even after I told her not to. I stopped and was clean for 2 months before relapsing. I then became clean for 6 months, which turned into a year. 1 month later i got a text saying my cousin had attempted suicide. This was only 1 year and 2 months after my best friend attempted. It reopened the scars that never healed fully. I was angry and devastated. 
10th grade started soon, after my 6 month mark, I felt like everything was going my way when I got a note saying: "your so fat! Lose some weight already!" At that point I was heartbroken. Unsure of what to do, I became anorexic. I would lie and tell my family and friends I had already eaten, that I wasn't hungry or that I was full. I was anorexic for 2 months before I finally just didn't care anymore. The rest of the year started to fall apart, I sat alone at lunch everyday, I would get food thrown at me or even people would move away and ignore me. I got ignored daily, teased, stuff thrown at me and even notes.  I never did anything because I felt like it was all my fault. Towards the end of the year I got a text saying: "stop eating your eye boogers, your disgusting!" I was hurt, I texted my friend Brianna* to see if she knew who it was and she said no, and then told me that it was the truth I do that. At that point I lost it and was done. I didn't want to do anything anymore. I skipped school saying that I was "sick" and sometimes I was other times I was just fine. Summer came really quick which meant no bullying but then youth conference came and it was stake, within the first day I had kids treating me like crap. I cried myself to sleep every night. On the last day I finally said something after Dallin* said I didn't know anything and to keep my mouth shut. I finally had had enough I went up and told him I didn't like the way he had been treating me. Everyone was shocked I would talk to someone like that. Everyone said that he was just joking and I needed to lighten up. No body saw the pain I was put in for that joke to be said.
No body sees the pain you put someone through until someone speaks up. During everytime I was teased, there were only bistanders, everytime I wished for the pain to end and for someone to step in and say I don't like the way your treating her, no one did. If I could give someone who's being bullied any advice it would be: talk to someone it helps. Tell your parents, tell your teacher tell someone. It's hard but it is worth it.